(There's always a breaking point for some people, and Eddie Kaspbrak just so happened to have several potential breaking points. He had always just been that kind of person. Sonia had raised him like he was a baby cow meant for veal. Kept him broken down, underdeveloped, and soft in all the ways he shouldn't be. Maybe he was soft in some part just because that's how God had wanted him to be, but he just felt everything So Much More than most people. Even girls.
It was embarrassing on a good day.
And today wasn't a good day. Today was an awful day, and when Richie Tozier, his absolute best friend and something - when he says that they were the bad people? That Eddie and Richie were bad? Oh hell, it conjures up a whole lot of ugliness inside of Eddie. Age old guilt over things not even relevant, the fresh guilt of the murders, the keen sting of Richie seeing him as the bad thing he always has been but now with just a new clarity...But there was also that crushing feeling of Richie seeing himself as bad too...
Shit, it's not a shocker that it happens. There's that old saying "burst into tears" but Eddie gives it a sort of literal feeling. He's like a little geyser, his body humming with raw energy, and then he gives this pained sound and suddenly he's crying full blast. Big ole Miyazaki tears dripping down his face, and there's those awful sounds of a kid really feeling it somewhere deep. He drops his face into his arm in some pointless attempt to hide it.)
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It was embarrassing on a good day.
And today wasn't a good day. Today was an awful day, and when Richie Tozier, his absolute best friend and something - when he says that they were the bad people? That Eddie and Richie were bad? Oh hell, it conjures up a whole lot of ugliness inside of Eddie. Age old guilt over things not even relevant, the fresh guilt of the murders, the keen sting of Richie seeing him as the bad thing he always has been but now with just a new clarity...But there was also that crushing feeling of Richie seeing himself as bad too...
Shit, it's not a shocker that it happens. There's that old saying "burst into tears" but Eddie gives it a sort of literal feeling. He's like a little geyser, his body humming with raw energy, and then he gives this pained sound and suddenly he's crying full blast. Big ole Miyazaki tears dripping down his face, and there's those awful sounds of a kid really feeling it somewhere deep. He drops his face into his arm in some pointless attempt to hide it.)